Friday, April 9, 2010

Searching for stars

It is night time again; it is very peaceful and serene here at night. I have never seen the stars like I can see them here. They actually twinkle and glimmer in the sky. There is even a difference in color you can notice between them. Looking up I find myself pondering about what I will do when I get back to the U.S. As much as I try to stay focused on my experience here, I can not help it. And the truth is that I don’t really know what to do. You ever felt like you had the potential to do anything and yet have the desire/motivation to do nothing? I feel I have been given the grand opportunity to do whatever I want but what is that? I could work and make money? Yeah that is what I need to do but it is not what I want. I can not find my drive any more. There was always a dream or a goal to follow but on this cloudy time in my life there are no stars. So as I look up at this sky overwhelmed with stars I can not help but to feel the sorrow stemming from the knowledge that there still may not be a single star in my sky back home. I hope I am not bringing anyone down; it is just how I feel. I came to Ghana hoping that at the end of my trip I will see the bigger picture. Thus far the picture has been growing. I just pray for the patience to see it all the way through.

8 comments:

Rodd P said...

Whats good brotha. You are doing a great thing out there!! You'll find whatever your looking for and make it work, you always do!! But on a change of pace.. your going to have to show ya boy some of them dance moves your talking about! you know I gotta unleash that Ghana on them boys. hahaha!!

Chris said...

Hey,I appreciate that...for real. Might have been just what I needed to here. But yeah I am about to put out a dance video title "You want some of this hot fiyah?!" lol, word up!

shemieka said...

hey chris...im glad to see that everything is going beautifully there for you in africa. im sad to admit that i had no idea that you write so vividly..so i have a suggestion. if u were to put your experiences and pictures of ghana in a book....i would sooooo buy it (u would have to autograph it first tho)...ttyl

Chris said...

Really? You are just pulling my leg! LOL, thanks for such a flattering comment. Maybe I will my friend, maybe I will. You definitely would get the 1st copy w/ autograph.

Quinton said...

Man Chris, I'm envious bruh. And I totally understand your plight 1st hand. You will find what you are looking for, and it seems that this trip is somewhat helping you with finding some clarity. Continue to enjoy man, and hit me when u get back.

Q. Nealy

Erika Morton said...

This was a short post but so beautifully poignant. I think it's a wonderful skill to be able to write something to where different people can interpret it in several different ways. I hear what you're saying about what's ahead but I know there's a plan. For me, I want to see the stars! :) I love looking up at the stars... To see them as clearly as you can there, my gosh, I can only imagine. Even when one thing you're looking for may seem so far away, there are so many blessings in the current moment. Don't miss out! (I just ministered to myself a bit) Love!

Chris said...

Ms. Morton why did you have to leave STL? I miss my friend. "Blessings in the current moment", thanks

Carmen San Diego said...

The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step. We don't have to have it all figured out yet, just know that in taking the action to move and accomplish your next big dream, you will be propelled towards your destiny. Seems like you've figured that out as well now, so keep the momentum up! =)